On Friday I finally submitted two of my fellowship applications, one for France and one for London. It felt like I was re-submitting my thesis again. I really thought that I was not worried about anything but Friday just proved I am. And then riding my bike home I realised that I probably have a better chance at winning the lottery… There is just not much you can do once the thing is submitted and I find hard to even read it once it has been sent off since I am worried I might find a big error somewhere. So I don’t and just file it away under Fellowships.
I did get a little bit of good news, yesterday I got an email from FRM (french medical foundation) that my application was not complete they needed the titles of my papers. However these IDIOTS do not only make the application just in FRENCH they also put a character limit on everything and although I do not have a crazy amount of papers I had to delete the first few ones to make everything fit, however the girl did mention to my boss that I have alot of publications compared to other applicants.
And about 1hr ago I got news from the other french fellowship, that because I am already working as a Postdoc they won’t register my application since they only want first timers to get the money. So I am back to the lottery… I am supposed to hear about one London fellowship this week, only if I make it through the first round and then you have an interview and then they decide. Looking at their website and the info about other successful applicants I realise that I don’t really have much of a chance there. Especially since I am FEMALE and somehow as a girl you have a lesser chance of getting these funds, while they did a few studies and are supporting women in science, to get the grant you have to have published more papers and of higher impact factors than the guys that apply.. Sounds totally weird, but it might be that it is the way we write applications or the projects that women are interested in?? Who KNOWS
Easter this weekend, but I will be working not a big deal since it is going to rain anyway and I did not have any plans to go home. Will be going in 2 weeks for my highschool reunion, so curious to see what that is going to be like.